A lot has happened since my last post. Life has been flipped upside down for me and my family. My wonderful stepdad Joseph took his life on April 19th. He lived most of his life on the streets with an addiction to drugs and alcohol. He came to Christ, learned to read, and had a wonderful ability for computers. He was clean and sober for three years. Joseph married my mom on March 15th 2007, and was a complete joy to have in our family. Joseph made my mom so happy, and in turn, that made me very happy as well. He and I were good buddies, and I was so proud to have him as my stepdad. After being told he had Hepatitis C he began taking Interferon and it triggered something in his mind. He began drinking alcohol again, and tried to get through the struggles. But the addiction was too much, and he did this. I know for a fact that he is in Heaven, free of addiction and free of any pain. I am comforted by this fact, but my mom and my family and I miss him terribly. We believe that Joseph couldn't go through the struggles of this addiction. He was such a wonderful, sweet, funny, and loving person. Even though I was not his child, he treated me as such. My friends looked up to him, loved him, and thought of him as a mentor in their lives. At his memorial, my grandpa's little church was packed full to the gills of people. He was so loved, and still will always be so loved.
I sometimes wish I could have said something, done something to show him how much I loved him. If I had a time machine, I would go back and savor each memory. I sometimes wonder how long it will take for the pain to subside. But the hard part about it is, I know it won't ever go away. I know we won't get over this, but we'll get through this. It's so hard to not have Joseph in our lives, but we are reassured that one day, we will see him again. I can already see him bouncing towards us with a big grin, so excited and happy to show us everything in Heaven that God has for us. I wish and pray everyday that the trumpets would sound and that the sky would part, because I really wanna just go home with Jesus. Our world is a terrible place. God never intended for us to go through this pain of death. He never wanted us to have to suffer the pain we feel when we lose a loved one.
- Mood:
giggly - Music:Trading Yesterday
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Every Breath You Take-Fading Yesterday
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:Decoy-Paramore
-My birthday is on Monday. Excited!
-Veteran's Day I'm going with my family to Knott's Berry Farm. It's gonna be exciting. My best friend is coming along too. He's great. He'll go on the coasters with my stepdad while the rest of us wimps eat dip'n dots and funnel cake. YEY.
-NOBAMA, cause i'm a McCainiac. But I guess we're stuck with this guy till he gets impeached/assasinated/end of four years. Just gotta hold strong and pray that the things he promises will be fufilled. Though...I doubt it.
-HSM3. I saw it. I cried. Vanessa sings nasally as always, and the script was cheesy, and the little British girl was annoying but holy crap it was amazing. I loved it so so much. As cute and cheesy Troyella is, I am still holding strong for Ryella. Seriously, they are too cute, and Troyella is too predictable. But it was very sweet, and I love the soundtrack.
-Gossip Girl. This show makes me sad and mad all at the same time. I get smad. I love Blair/Chuckness to death. I wish they had more scenes together. I also am sad that the bromance of Chuck/Nate is over. Dude, Nate, get over it. You are a jerk to both Chuck and Blair over 1.13 still? Serena is gorgeous but boring. I hate Jenny, and I hate Jenny and Nate together. SO FREAKING STUPID. But yeah, I want more Chair.
-Repo! the genetic opera. I have gotten into this failbomb that is repo. It is so freakish and scary but the music is brilliant and beautiful and gosh i just freakin love it. It's so awesome. I wish I could see it...If anyone knows where to download it at then let me know. :D
-And last off, the thing the whole world is buzzing about...Twilight. I'll be honest, I hate all these stupid fans who are just barely getting into the series because its a movie and everyone is reading it and loving it. I read it a while back before Eclipse came out. So all these fakies and over the top fans really bother me. I don't know, I just, love the series and I love the characters that I would hate to see something like this just get annoying to me because everyone loves it. URG. But yeah, I also think Breaking Dawn never happened. For me the series ended at Eclipse. TEAM SWITZERLAND BAYBAY!
That's it. I'll probably post pictures or random stuff later.
- Location:my chair
- Mood: giggly
- Music:TPOTO-Graveyard-Elizabeth Loyacano/Tim Martin Gleason/Anthony Crivello
i haven't posted here in such a long time. its a little dusty in here, sick. anyways, whats up with me? nothin, but i'll explain anyways.
1. my moms getting married next week. FREAKY.
2. People ask me if I'm going on the honeymoon. seriously? whats going through their heads? like i would go and be the third wheel. i hate bein around them bein all lovey dovey now anyways. its gerross!
3. i honestly hate hannah montanna/miley cyrus. she's overrated, and a hoebag. sorry. she is, get over it.
4. i can't wait till gossip girl comes back on teevee. it's freaking exciting! the drama, the clothes, the actors, CHACE Crawford!
5. i can't wait till April 1st. I know what your thinking, 'wth, april fools day?' no, no, no! sweeney todd on DVD!
6. i also can't wait for school to be over, i'm dyin.
7. i can't wait for december. how FUN. twilight movie. i'm so anticipating this movie.
8. just like i'm anticipating the Dark Knight. that for me, is like, the best thing ever. i loved Heath Ledger, and I was so devastated to see him go. he was amazing, and will always live in our hearts. at least his legacy was ended with a fantastic batman movie.
9. hmm hmm what else can i put here? i like writing. if i get up the courage, i'll post what I've been working on so whoever pathetically reads this pathetic journal besides me can see what talent i have, or lack thereof.
10. oo woopie, last uhh...topic? haha. hmm...i love edward cullen. yewp.
kays, ending now. love yas.
XOXO
- Location:bed
- Mood:
productive - Music:1234-Feist
I saw Wicked in LA on Saturday! Oh my Lord it was SO amazing. Elphie and Galinda were Eden Espinosa and Megan Hilty. My favorites by the way. My first LIVE performance. We were in the back but I could still see everything crystal clear. Except the dragon, but I didn't wanna see that really haha. Anyways, I really wanted to meet them at the stage door, but I didn't know where it was, and I couldn't find any information about it on like myspace or the actual website for Wicked. I was upset that I didn't get to take a picture with the cast, but I hopefully will get to when I go to see it before it closes! Woooo. I got a defy gravity shirt. It's so cute. My time was amazing, everyone was perfect, and I just LOVED it. Go see it now...
Okay, time for bed, I'm tired, long day.- Location:Couch, where else?
- Mood: giggly
- Music:Cowboy take me away-Dixie Chicks
- Mood:
excited - Music:Wicked Witch of the East-Wicked-Original Broadway Cast
Yay, my first LJ post! I'm all excited! Hee. I'll get the hang of this, so bear with me. Today wasn't too interesting. I saw Shrek Three, and thought it was a pretty good movie. Not as good as Meet the Robinsons though, haha...Anyways...thats it I guess..
- Location:Den
- Mood:
content - Music:Gilmore Girls-Christopher Returns
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